Relinquishing Fear

“When you subdue your giant, you teach the rest of us how to take ours down.” — Sarah J. Roberts.

Those words resonated so heavily with me, that it prompted me to write about my own process of taking down my giants and relinquishing fear. For a very long time, I had allowed “fear” to hold me captive, and as a result missed opportunities, depression, anxiety, self-doubt, and low self-esteem shortly followed. The fearless, tenacious, confident, and energetic girl I once was, became fearful, uncertain, self-conscious, and mentally drained. I wish I could tell you that immediately I snapped out of it, but that would be far from the truth. For years, I found comfort in my traumas, by convincing myself that there was no trauma to begin with, and that the way I was going about life, now, was merely just me protecting myself, because no one else would. But I was wrong … God will. 

Although at first I was in complete denial, I had eventually come to the realization that I was in fact wounded. Meaning that there were some things that I needed to heal from, in order to experience the growth I was so desperately seeking. I had to figure out where that “fear” stemmed from. After a while of being on this journey of self discovery, I found it! I had actually found what I believe to be the root cause. I was afraid that I wasn’t “good enough.” Imposter syndrome at its finest!  The fear of being inadequate hindered me from taking on opportunities that I was more than capable of. It made me afraid to try. It silenced me. It made me question every little thing about myself, so much so, that I was even uncertain on what my purpose in life was. Thank God I finally found it.